A year ago I felt like my dream was shattered. I remember leaving Miss Gay Arizona 2012 pageant in tears. I didn't want to look at pictures, videos or hear anything about the pageant. I honestly didn't care about anything that had to do with pageantry anymore. I just wanted to be away from everyone and just put it behind me, and I did. Then things in my life started taking a bad direction, I felt lost, I felt confused, I was sad, I was depressed. The only person that could help me was “me”. I had to snap out of it and get things back in the right direction. I decided to turn every negative into a positive. I focused on me, both physically and emotionally, focused more on my personal carrier; removed certain negatives that I was surrounded by, moved in to my new condo, and concentrated more on my family and friends. Then it all came back to me, the dream of being Miss Arizona, the feeling of wanting to make Arizona proud at Miss Gay America. I knew everything I had to do in order to reach this goal. I had all the answers to my questions. I started preparing every little detail of what I call my “masterpiece” and I always kept that saying close to my heart that Miss Gay America 2011 Coti Collins once told me “Don’t ever let anyone determine yourself worth.” I started working on my package and by January of this year I had all my ideas ready, I knew exactly what I wanted to present to the judges and to everyone at Miss Gay Arizona 2013. I gathered my team and we all together worked hard on every detail. Then the weekend of Miss Gay Arizona 2013 came and I was overwhelmed with emotion. Everything that I had planned, everything that I had noted down was a reality. EVERYTHING WAS EXACTLY HOW I WANTED IT. And finally last night, Sunday July 21, 2013 I was crowned Miss Gay Arizona America 2013. And to top it all off I was awarded every category. I had won male interview, solo talent, evening gown, tied with Savannah Stevens in Onstage Question and won talent. All the hard work and dedication paid off.
These past few weeks have been very stressful but at the same time some of the best memories I will cherish for the rest of my life. There are so many people to thank; therefore I will not name names. First of all, I had the best team in the world, TEAM TYRA MARIE. You were all there with me on stage during that talent and you all made sure everything was on point and for that I am FOREVER grateful. Thank you for all the love because at moments when I doubted myself you all made sure I was back on track. My LATINOS were right there with me all the way and that is the best feeling in the world.
Thank you to the judges for giving me the responsibility and job duties of Miss Gay Arizona 2013. Thank you to all the people that in one way or another helped me on this journey. Thank you to all the former Miss Gay Arizona’s that have taken their time to share their experiences with me. Thank you to all the promoters I have had along the journey. To every single person that has believed in me, I thank you with all my heart. Gracias.
Miss Gay Arizona America 2013
From the Journal of Miss Gay Arizona America 2015, Nevaeh McKenzie